keong,
Just leave her and stop complaining. So what if she's your first gf?
She being your first doesn't mean you'll have to suffer.
She being your first gf doesn't mean you'll never ever in your whole life find another girl.
She being your first gf doesn't mean she has your whole heart.
She being your first gf doesn't mean she controls your life.
She being your first gf doesn't mean that you can't recover from a broken heart.
She being your first gf doesn't mean that should just continue this farked up relationship.
She being your first gf doesn't mean that you can tell her how to live her life.
She being your first gf doesn't mean you can tell her what to do and what not to do.
She being your first gf doesn't mean a lot of things other than just a first gf.
Think about it dude. Live up to having those things between your legs. Better you hurt now till you recover, then go through this "I wonder what she's doing now with that uncle" bullshit. What's the point if you're going to fuck your own mental and heart up just for a bitch who wants to be a slut with a bastard who's married to a witch and acting like a fuck.
Seriously, if you don't want to step out of that relationship, ALL the ZTH-ians also won't be able to help you. You've got to decide to...
1) stay with that bitch and continue to suffer
or
2) Leave that bitch with a clear cut message and recover yourself.
If you choose 1, it'll be just a matter of time before we stop caring and supporting you. Why so is because no matter how much advice we give you, it'll be the same advice and since you don't want to free yourself, it's pointless for us to care.
If you choose 2, we'll still continue to support you, drag you out for TT and some talk shit sing piss, etc. and help you recover back. Cry if you need to after you break up. Crying helps relieve the pain. Trust me. I cry a lot of times and it helps. The thing is that you're sure to recover and be stronger after that. And if you did decide to leave her, just leave her. No need to act strong or weak or whatever shit just to show her. F U C K I T. Live your own life. If you're weak, then fall and get up and be strong again. When you're stronger, your mental will be stronger. Later in time, another girl will come. Look at me. Fat fuck also still can get girls, nice one too. Some more, I always use bad words and I'm childish and playful. The thing is, I treat the girl nice and make her feel comforted and cared for. But that's just about what I do. Gals has asked me stuff like, "What if I fall for another guy" or "what if bla bla bla"... those bad stuff that she does while with me. I just tell her, "I'll just leave. Not because I don't love or care for you. But because you've already made a decision and I'll just respect it and go". Then, they understood what I meant and tell me, "no la, I'm not that type". Well, just live longer and see if they're really that type or not la. hahaha
Sorry for being outwardly too direct but I just feel that it's not worthy for you to suffer like that. That's all of my crappy talk. You can laugh now. haha