i got a story to share with you guys
i have been ****** this girl for 2 yrs, and we just recently broke up, yes of course i did cried like a baby, i know is ashamed to tell ppl about this...
for the past two yrs with her, i lost all my friends and i was practically living in a very pathetic life style. yet, i have no regret for that....I am not blaming her for losing all my friends, is just that she start blaming me for making her life miserable, been complaining about how i control her and stuff like that...and telling ppl what a jerk i am.....
the most remarkable thing is that, when she went back to Malaysia for winter holiday last yr (2004), she was still alright and we do still sweet talk to each other during her stay in terengganu with her parents, but during the 10 days trip to KL, she got back with her ex bf and stuff.... called me up telling me lets end our relationship. The reason why she doesnt wanna be with me anymore is that, she dont see me as her future husband and on top of that, her bf is buying her a house....
I still thinks about her at times, sometimes when i wake up, realizing that she is no longer sleeping next to me or to feel her gentl body next to me, and i can felt my tears on my cold face........ dudes, being single without friends is the shitties thing ever to go thru... well, thank God, i still got my close friends in san francisco and now staying with them.....but still, i still miss her thou, even though today is the 100th days of me being single......but i do pray day and night just to wish i could have her back again....!!!!
well thanks for reading it....!!! :(