Dear bro escksu,
I don't know if this will make you feel any better but you're definitely not alone!
I am pretty much in the same situation as you except that I am down under.
What makes it worse is the fact that I have to pay around AUD$500 in tax + super every fortnight minus the fact that I have to some times endure racial abuses and unfair treatment at the workplace.
Nevertheless, Malaysia is where my heart is. I'll reclaim her once my contract is over!!!!
I believe many would still want to live in own country. Coz there's where we grow up, where we do idiotic things when we were teenagers, and where we have the most friends. Home sweet home